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Thursday, March 12, 2009
THE POETICS AND POLITICS OF SUCKING AT SCHOOL
Hating school this week. Wishing that I could magically finish this program right now and get a meaningful job, where taking my work home and worrying about it late at night during bouts of insomnia wasn't part of the job description.
For the first time ever, I'm struggling to keep my head above water in a course, through what feels like no fault of mine. Assignment requirements have not been clear, the marking seems arbitrary and inconsistent, and it seems no amount of effort will change the outcome. When asked what my favourite anthropology-related book was, I told my prof that I really liked Writing Culture, and I think that totally whacked in the last nail. He laughed at me. Man, archaeologists. I think I'm developing weird stereotypes for different fields, now that I'm in a multi-disciplinary program. Awful.
Academia, I hate you today. At the same time, I think I'm in the wrong field. I don't even care anymore. I just want to have the tools to get a job, so that I can be secure and comfortable enough to explore whatever I'd like. I guess. That's pretty idealistic.
I guess so is thinking that grad school will be easy.
11:14 AM
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